Motivation mishap...

Greetings,

Greetings,

It’s October! So many events around the world are happening, the Philippine floods, earthquakes somewhere in the pacific area and super odd weather in Australia which is pretty insignificant, but the dust storm was pretty cool – not for the asthmatics.

I do send my prayers to them, to all

Well today was my first day back at university for the second half of the semester. It’s been like over a month since I’ve been back in Bathurst. I think it’s going to be a short semester. Anyways straight into my day...I slept around 6am and woke up at 8am to get ready for university, your probably wondering why I slept late. I slept late because I had assessment due today. I knew I could finish it but it was just a waste of time.

I didn’t find myself stressing for some reason and it was kind of weird. It’s like I didn’t care anymore. As the day progressed, only knowing I had to finish this assessment before 4pm. I attended most of the lectures today which was pretty amazing but I was pretty much in the library, typing, bludging, catching up with my library people and typing. As 4pm sneaked up on me, I was really getting worried and I started to stress. That feeling like I didn’t care, it went away and my original emotions and feelings came back.

I knew the only way I could finish it if I rushed some bits, and so I did. I wouldn’t be surprised if I got an ‘F’ or a resubmission. I really deserve it, you know. And you what sucks I had two assessments due today. But luckily I finished one of them beforehand, I’m proud about that. Still not happy with myself, I handed my second assessment like ten minutes before the assessments were collected. Boy was I puffed out.

After handing in those terrible assessments, I did feel relieved but only to know I got another three assessments, just like the ones I just did. I deserve that too…

I’m being honest now because I lied to myself, lied to people and lied about finishing it on time. I feel guilty and bad.

It’s not that I hate assessments, its just I felt different before I started these assessments. Like “I don’t have to do it, it worth’s nothing” but its like worth 50%...

Ehh, this is me.

I just want to say one more thing because this blog is getting lengthy, I WILL NEVER DO THIS AGAIN, I now know how it feels to fully embrace procrastination. Most probably I’ll be a hypocrite and have another similar experience, and I know I should of learnt my lesson at “putting it off” and intervened there but nooo Relgin has to do it the hard way now. I hate it. I’ve learnt my lesson…

Sorry Mum and Dad.

Especially sorry God.

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Until next time
Keep blogging or get into blogging

in Him, we live

Relgin.
Keep smiling =(