tough times, struggles, weaknesses...

Greetings,

(Warning, might be very long)
I know i should be studying my ass off for exams that appear to be commencing next week, but i feel i have a lot to blog about. And if i don't ill lose it. I may have mentioned this before but officially this is my last week of semester one of two thousand and eight. I can't seem to imagine how time flew by so fast.

A while ago i blogged about my weakness in grammar and proper sentencing. I've been seeing a learning advisor specialized in english. Its been my second go so far, and my first attempt was terrible (my assessment that i had to resubmit), which wasn't as discouraging, because it was my first go of reviewing it. Second go, i brought it in with confidence because i really put some hours in before i came back, and even asked a friend to read it over. And bam! I'm hit with large amount of red marks. That was discouraging to be honest. But i wasn't going to give up, we went over i sought out some problems and pin point weak areas.
I even purchased a book that could assist me with academic essay writing. I even enrolled into a distance education bridging course, which involves everything about english (all over). It has no credibility towards my course but the benefit it will give me in the long run. I also intend to find some more resources and friendly people to help me improve.

As of today, i was able to run into my encouraging lecturer whose been very supportive and inspiring. I handed my final editing for my resubmit at that time. She was able to tell me a story just like mine, how a student before struggled the kind of struggles, weaknesses and went through tough times. My lecturer had informed me, with this students persistence and courage to face their own weaknesses straight on and tackle it head down, this student is now gaining marks like credit to high distinctions.
My lecturer also said it is going be rough, stressing and challenging but in time you'll look back and see what you have achieved and tell a similar story just like her ex-student. My teacher is a very persistent lady herself because it took me a long time to see a learning's advisor and my teacher took this into higher authorities to see why there is a shortage of staff. I was pretty impressed and how she can take things pretty seriously in the right matter of course.

Well i've been writing up devotions from scratch, reading a variety of devotions that was sent to me by request and you know to continue my spiritual growth with God. One of the reasons i became keen of reading. There was one devotion or part of an activity that the youth leaders in my youth group are suppose to be teaching this friday. The activity was called "Denying yourself". The run down is to 'totally commit everything to what is right in God's word', to the point where we may be mocked, judged, and could mean the loss of a good friend. This type of commitment is extreme and may seem impossible, But thats why Jesus died on the cross for our sins. This is where i want to be.

To be aware of this is encouraging, not so much demoralizing but really encouraging. I can't say "I can do that, no worries". My words would be "Where do i sign up?" or "Where do i start?". Its kind of like me identifying my weakness in grammar and now i am doing something about it. I've identified and aware of this type of commitment and now i am going to do something about it.

That's it guys, hope you enjoyed it.

until next time
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relgin.
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